Season 4 Episode 12 The Getaway

I used to binge watch tv shows on Netflix while I was pregnant.
I was so sick all I could do was lay down, nap and watch tv.
But I cant watch that show
I cant watch that episode.

I was so into the show
I was oblivious what was happening in my body
But my Dr has told me many times
there wouldn't have been any signs.

I can tell you exactly what I had for dinner
I can tell you what I was doing while I was eating dinner
I can tell you when I went to bed
I can tell you when I went and got snacks and water

and bathroom breaks

but I cant
for the life of me tell you or

know why or how my son died...

I never sleep on the nights of the 13th...

Or any other night for that matter