Baby, were having a baby....

A year ago today we found out we were pregnant.
I peed on that stick and my heart dropped to my stomach.
Both lines were blue and I didnt believe it
So I took another 4 tests...
The digital tests said
"PREGNANT"
the pink ones had two lines
and James was so excited....

We screamed we cried and we knew from this moment onward our lives would change for the better.

A year ago today a journey started that we thought would end differently
9 months of being sick
buying maternity clothes
baby things
preparing a nursery
having him
and bringing him home
but it didn't happen like that....

A year ago we were looking forward to this day to tell him
"This was the day we knew you were a reality"

A year ago we imagined things to go so differently today...
We had never imagined it like this...

That whole day was a blur of emotions.
Me thinking my life was over
James being so excited he had planted his seed.
We were 4 weeks when we found out.

James had been calling it all week,
"You haven't had your period, I bet you're pregnant"

We had gone out to run errands and James made us stop at the drug store to get tests.
It literally was like the scene from knocked up.
We bought every test known to man
this one said know 5 days sooner, this one said 6.
I was oblivious to it all.
I just wanted red vines...

At this point my period was two days late and I thought there was still a chance that it would come...
man was I wrong.\

The test came up positive and I yelled or did something for James who was playing video games.
When he saw the test he had the biggest grin on his face and said
by far
the cutest thing ever
Baby, were having a baby!!"

A year ago today we started what should have been the most exciting experience of our lives.
And it was...
Until November 14th....