Mountain Climber

Got up
Worked out
Showered
Got dressed

for a working interview

Did I imagine that I would be working right now in my life
No
Not at all
I should be at home
with my 4 month old son
freaking out about the fact he just rolled over

Do I get anxiety about putting on the face
and making sure Im "normal" today

You fucking bet I do...

But it takes every fiber of my being to normal
on a day to day basis.
And it is beyond mentally and emotionally draining.
Because no one wants to hang out with the girl who is always sad....

Getting out of my bed is the first task of the day to actually get through
that one thing
that seems so little to everyone else
is a monumental moment in my day

And leaving the house is another
and putting on todays face
is another...

I am not making a mountain out of a molehill here people...
Until you've been here you cant say shit...

So today I am a mountainclimber...
Ive climbed 3 mountains so far today...
and its not even 8:30.