Numb

There are parts of my stomach that are still numb
and a section of it today is starting to get feeling
and it burns

Your body goes through hell during a pregnancy
hormonal
physical
emotional
changes that you have no choice but to accept. 
Alot of these things they dont tell you about
or you find out about them too late...
its worse after having "had" the baby
and trying to wrap your emotions around what youre feeling...

I already once talked about the phantom kicks...
which in the past week have been happening more and more.
I already spoke about the milk coming in
again, your body thinks you had the baby. 

I was told by a few people that have had c sections
that everyone heals differently. 
Luckily I got almost all the feeling back.
There is a 1 inch section from the bottom of my belly button 
to my incision that still hurts.
I got the really dark line on my stomach when I was pregnant 
which is slowly starting to go away.
But my stomach will never be the same.

Ive slowly started working out again since the surgery 
but my stomach muscles are totally shot.

When we were at the hospital and they were giving us the option on how we could have had him
I was really worried if I had the surgery it would look like a hack job.
I thought that I would have to look at my stomach 
and think about how terrible this whole experience was day after day
But the incision is so little and my dr did such a great job, 
unless I told you
you would never see it.