I lost my shit

Yesterday I was cleaning and this song came on
and needless to say I was a puddle on the floor within seconds
Sadly, I loved this song
until yesterday.
I had finally sat down and really understood the lyrics...
and now this song is somewhat ruined.

At work today my boss was lightly playing country in the office upstairs
which overlooks the lobby
I had quietly been humming along to the few songs I did know as they came on
and was dreading the moment I heard those first few words....

If I die young

Immediately a torrential down pour of tears overtook my entire face
but I had to pull myself together to check in a client...
a coworker came up and asked if I was ok....
which are honestly the last words I ever want to be asked...
but I answered yes and she asked why I was crying

I said its just this song
          I know what you mean. Is it some stupid boy that broke your heart?
yes it was a boy, but he wasnt at all stupid. He was my son. 

In an instant I was enclosed in a very tearful hug, followed by condolences, and an "Im so sorry" 

Im hoping that someday I can listen to the songs 
that now
hurt so badly.