Gummy Bear

A year ago today 

I had the first look at my son. 

At the time I didn't know he was a boy, 

it just looked like a little gummy bear

with a little grey flicker on the screen where his heart beat was. 

I was laughing, James was crying 

and we both had never been happier or more scared in our lives. 

Everyone said that you had the best ultrasound picture they had ever seen.

Daddy made you his screensaver for months, and I just kept staring at you in awe of what was happening in my body. 

Today hurts, just like everyday does, but I will never forget the first time I met you...and how happy we were to finally meet you.