It was supposed to be different....

I went and picked up my sister today.
She came up for what was supposed to be a super fun birthday weekend and meeting Bug...
Of course seeing her made me cry and think of all the things this visit was supposed to be,
her meeting her nephew for the first time,
coming and seeing me and James
and having fun.
It will be somewhat of a healing weekend for her...shes not been able to really process and grieve like everyone else, and she was really involved in my pregnancy, baby shower, and everything Bug...
I just hope I'm able to keep it together for a portion of her stay.
After I started crying I said I was sorry...I didn't want to ruin her birthday and visit.
She said "There is no way you could ruin it. I don't care about my birthday. I'm here for you."