Tears

I'm so incredibly tired of crying 

Of feeling sad 

Of feeling weak

I try I hide it from James

I'm sure he's tired of seeing and hearing my cry

The don't stop coming 

They physically burn my cheek and my face is rubbed raw from the continual wiping 

You don't want them to come but the harder you keep from trying to cry the harder you end up sobbing 

I feel crazy 

I talk to him all the time 

Before it made sense 

He could hear me, he would move 

Now I'm just alone in my house talking to myself 

Sitting awake in the dead of night crying trying not to wake James...

I try not to cry in front of everyone...

But I just need to cry sometimes...