I'm not ready

verb

1. 1.

   prepare (someone or something) for an activity or purpose.

   
   

I'm not ready to make that drive again

To walk through that office

To see their faces 

To be in that room

To talk to the doctor 

I'm not ready for tomorrow...

Shit, I wasn't ready for today...

I'm not ready for the tears I know that are going to come and the emotions I'm going to feel. 

I don't think I'll ever be ready...

I think it's funny 

you don't think you're ever ready to be a parent and you then get 9 months to try and wrap your head around it and finally when you think you're ok 

like a rug it's ripped out from under you...

in a second the air you breathe is gone...

none of these things are you ever ready for...

I know it's coming...but I'll never be ready for it...