Your brothers birthday

Your brothers 1st birthday has come and gone.

And I did nothing the days leading up to it but cry.

I cried because you weren't here

and you weren't my first baby to turn one.

I cried because he was one

and you weren't here to celebrate it with him.

I cried because it was Christmas

and the 3rd one we had without you.

I cried because there is really no other way to express how Im feeling about all of this.

There will always be days that belong to your brother

that bring up the fact that you arent here

and it sucks because I dont want to take away from his day

but I miss you....and I always will.....