You dont have to tell me

I already know that its November.
My anniversary is both a happy and sad day since 2013.
After October comes November.

It happens every year.

The first causes so much anxiety.
It, without fail
begins the awful countdown
to the worst day of my life.

I feel like Im the only one that hates the beginning of November.
Everyone else becomes excited for Thanksgiving and Family
And Im just in my own little corner dreading the passing of every day.