Bank accounts and Buchanans

The week we found out we were pregnant with Bug, after satisfying a chicken nachos craving and puking it up on the floor in home depot, we went to the bank and set him up a savings account.

Over the 9 months we were pregnant with him, money went into that account, as well as after he passed. It just continued growing. 

We honestly just left the account and once we got pregnant again, I kind of forgot about it. 

Until recently. 

It was getting annoying going to this baby account and getting money our just for baby things. 

When I could just budget it into our monies already instead of it going to a different account. 

So I had voiced this to James thinking nothing would come of it.

And then he said he was going to go to the back and stop the allotment and shut the account. 

I freaked and said don't.

I was so not ready for one of the last things I had of him to be gone.....

a bank account

as silly as it is

was made for him

with nothing but love

hopes and dreams

and everything you think is going to happen when you're pregnant and about to have a baby.

We also, soon after finding out we were pregnant, got a bottle of Buchanan's whiskey. 

We had intended on opening it the day he was born for a shot, his 18th birthday, his 21st birthday and pass the bottle on to him on his wedding day. 

But obviously his bottle was never opened.

And ironically we hadn't found it anywhere near us until recently .

So in walks James with this bottle of whiskey and he starts opening it.

We've had a bottle since 2014 but never tasted it. 

I didn't know that opening a bottle of it would be so emotional. 

I ended up finding a special edition bottle for Carter.

But still don't have the heart to open it.