2 years 5 months

76,204,800 seconds

1,270,080 minutes

21,168 hours

882 days

since I lost my son

If only April wasn't so painful.

I don't think that it will ever get easier, like I've said before.

Specific dates come around and it's like I was put back on that date in 2013... 

We were so engulfed in the fact that we were pregnant. 

I was sicker then a dog but trying to hide it since we didn't want to announce yet. 

Stupidly we thought telling everyone on our birthday was a great idea, and also because James was sending me home for my birthday and me not drinking would have given it away. 

I urge mothers in my stillbirth and baby loss groups, then when they are pregnant, to not announce on a holiday.

Some listen, and the ones that don't, then message me and say,

 I should have listened.